Holidays suck. Truly they do. I honestly wish I could go to the other side of the fucking world for the month of December. The fighting, pain, thievery... it just gets worse every year. I feel as if I'm being held hostage in my own home. My parents fight over me for Christmas, at least one scar of some kind is added before the end of the year, and to top it all off my sister is a total bitch and kleptomaniac. God, after stealing over $60,000 from my grandparents she still feels the need to break into their house and take more. I don't even feel like I can keep nice stuff of my own... I can't even try to save up cash because odds are she'll just end up stealing that too. I understand that hate is a strong word. But I do believe I truly hate her. She causes nothing but trouble and grief for me and my family. And yet, when she does something..(stealing money that was given to me along with the boots I've been unable to get for the past three years until now).. there are no consequences. She knows she can do anything she fucking wants because she has my niece and if we kicked her out something terrible would happen to her baby.

God, because of this woman I've been lied to again and again, stolen from, and even beaten. The one thing I asked for from my grandparents this year was a tool kit to assemble my 4 year science project. I was lucky enough to get it and yet the only thing I could think of was how many locks I could attach to my door to keep her out. Because of her and her stupid boyfriend's drunk asses I had a bruise on the left side of my face for several weeks. It's so frightening to know that you can't do anything to help yourself wen you know you could be hurt.

And to think I actually tried to do something for my sister. We both get $100 from my mother each year for Christmas. I got the boots I wanted and put the rest towards a big present for her. She got me a manga... that she paid for with the giftcard my grandparents were going to give to me for Christmas. Thanks a lot bitch. And after my grandparents paid for more she stole half of it then denied it. And to prove she took it I found half of what she stole in her pocket.

If it weren't for the love of my life being here with me this year, people would be carting me off to a room with padded walls.

I hope everyone's holiday's were great or at least bearable. I hope the new year brings in new people and opportunities in all of our lives.